I don’t know how much I’ve talked about my family in the past few months here, but I know I’ve mentioned my Grandma’s failing health on my other social media sites. I promise it wasn’t in a, “feel bad for me and give me attention” sort of way, just as a, “this is how I’m feeling right now” way.
Today I want to talk about death.
I’ve noticed in my news feeds that fellow mothers that I’m friends with are losing loved ones in their lives, and also with the Boston bombings, more families are having to deal with loss and talking to their kids about it as well…I guess what I’m getting at, is how do you explain different kinds of loss?
This past weekend was an exhausting one for my family, both physically and emotionally. As some of you know my Grandma, who my kids refer to as GG (so I will as well to save time typing), has been slowly deteriorating. Not once, but twice, my dad and my husband have traveled out to see her to move her to new rooms, as she has gone from her Condo, to an assisted living situation, to now a full on nursing home room shared with a cranky older woman who never turns her TV off. For the past few months my family has gone out to visit often to get the most out of her last days as possible, and for her to be able to see what could possibly be her last great-grand child to be born while she’s still here. Continue reading →
*My Uncle Dan, one of the loveliest men I’ve even known.*
As you all know, or at least some of you know, if you follow my blog–one of my favorite uncles passed away a few days ago unexpectedly. He had been having problems with his lungs, and had tests and procedures done to rule out things, and was given basically the ok that he would be…ok. He ended up passing from a heart attack. How terribly unfair….I’ve never been good at processing death, or really any type of sadness for that matter. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a very passionate person. Anger I can express really well, just ask my husband…but when it comes to sadness, I just don’t know how to do it. Continue reading →
So, with the loss of one of my favorite Uncles, I am doing what I do best…throwing myself into something to distract me. I made my first video blog today. My hope is that I can connect my web blogs with my video blogs so that anyone and everyone who follows me, or comes across my work can know me.
As I was working on this video I felt like a dumbshit. I mean how do you sit there and talk about YOURSELF…In high school I was fine doing performances with the school’s show choir in front of people, but when it came to me doing piano recitals, or speaking by myself in front of people I would always freak. So making a video, of JUST myself talking about MYSELF seemed like a pretty good idea…