As you all read in my post from yesterday morning, J and K have not been doing so well. Like I said in earlier posts, although I will never share marital problems with you because I think there is a line that needs to be drawn when it comes to a husband and wife’s relationship, I will share relatable issues that are affecting my pregnancy. Also I wouldn’t call the things that we had going on last week “martial issues”, because honestly, it was just a lack of communication and understanding due to a certain situation, my pregnancy.
Even though I am extremely happy and so excited about this upcoming baby, and even my pregnancy (heat, hunger, weight gain, and all) I still feel low and depressed at times. These past few weeks have been no different. In a lot of ways I still am very young. I am 25. Most people my age aren’t even married, or considering kids yet. I’m working on my third. I have a long life ahead of me and I can’t wait to share it with my family, but at times I still get glum about all sorts of things.
The most recent fight with my husband could be blamed on pregnancy hormones and moodiness by any outsider looking in. In reality though I think that I have controlled my swings pretty well and instead of it being pregnancy based, I just think pregnancy has made it worse. I feel more, I react more, and I share more. The problems are still REAL problems that need to be REALLY fixed, pregnancy just brings them out, when maybe a non pregnant Kelli would have swallowed them down for a little longer.