We’ve had the baby, now what’s next? Divorce?

It’s always been ironic to me that something that should bring a couple together like the birth of a baby, can also push that same couple to the brink of separation. No, John and I are not getting a divorce, trust me, but I’m not going to lie, sometimes the thought  has crossed my mind and even come out of my mouth during hormonal induced screaming matches…

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2013 means no dairy and no nuts…aw, nuts…

As excited as I was to start a new year, (considering how stressful the end of 2012 was for us) the one thing that has put a damper on my excitement is the new diet that I will be now following.

As many of you know, Kya has been diagnosed with a milk and nut allergy. The lover of fine cheeses and rocky road in me wants to deny that there is anything wrong with her, but the realistic diarrhea diaper changer in me knows that there is. Not only does she have the nastiest poos, but she is bleeding in them as well…sigh.

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Finally caught a break…

When things are really shitty, or always going the wrong way, it becomes hard to believe that better days are ahead, or that things will turn around.

For a lot of women it is hard to understand why anyone would feel down after having a beautiful little baby, especially if those women can’t have babies themselves. Part of post partum depression is not being able to see the “silver lining in things” as my husband likes to call it, or in my case, having difficulty keeping faith that things will get better for me, even during times where most people would be extremely happy. A lot of the times because of this, post partum depression can be confused for selfishness, or being “hormonal”, which is a shame.

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Son of a B*%$#!!!!

I am a firm believer that God only puts us through things that he thinks we are strong enough to handle. It’s very comforting for me to think this way and it has gotten me through a lot of hard times in my life. Right now however, all I want to do is scream a bunch of curse words out into the world until I’m blue in the face.

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